I'm always telling my friends how they have to learn to love themselves in order for others to love them...that you have to find the good in you for others to see it,, ya know? Let your light shine and such...that sorta thing.
Well, I suppose I feel a tad hypocritcal in that I put up a facade. I mean, yes...I'm a happy go lucky kid with not a care in the world...just wanna live and be free and what not...laugh the days away...BUT...I feel like my self-esteem is slowly decreasing due to the lack of love I have for my body. I wanted a quick fix to help me lose weight not for health reasons but for everyone else.
I've never had a problem with my body until "thin was in." I started comparing myself to everyone else...wanting to look like that girl next door that didn't have to search through racks of clothes looking for the shirt or jeans that would fit her body perfectly and not make her look like a huge, disgusting mess...
I started thinking so poorly of myself...I let the media and society change my perception of beauty. I don't like who I've become...so I feel like I need to put that to rest. I'm still going to lose weight, but I'm going to do it the healthy way...just so I can be healthier...I'm not going to allow this one aspect of my life effect my self-worth.
I may hate my thighs...my stomach may not be the smallest...but I have so much more to bring to the table and I need to focus on that...the good in me...I have to learn to love myself...all of me... again!
GO CHICAGO WHITE SOX!!!!